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05

Dec

I’m Sorry

I’m sorry I’m such a fuck up. I’m sorry that it’s come down to this…..I miss being your best friend. I miss talking to you all day everyday, and being the one person you could tell anything to. I miss being there as the sholder to cry on when the world was caving in and the one person you trusted more than anyone else, the person who would never hurt you and never turn their back on you and of course that would never betray you. I’m sorry that by giving in to my own selfishness I’ve ruined it all. I’m so sorry.

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03

Nov

eatprayblog asked: Oh, I'm so sorry about that. It's in Tagalog. :)

Oh it’s fine I was just wondering…Thanks!

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20

Oct

Nerd? I prefer the term ‘intellectual bad ass.’

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Yes. Bad ass bad ass bad ass. >:))

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Oct

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30

Sep

Apprently I’m a whore….. -_-

I had sex with adonis. after years of loveing him…after all the lies and broken hearts we did it. and it was great and I never experianced something so good in every aspect. and then he left my house and went home to his girlfriend…………….I’m a horrible horrible person!! I knew about her and yet i did this. She called him the whole time…while he was inside me I could hear her ringtone………….OMG!! I’m a whore.  I feel so bad for this………..for her. I  cut, I burned all because of this……….I hate myself for stooping so low as to bed another womans man. I cant look myself in the face right now

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28

Sep

Damn…….

So it’s been a while and I don’t have  the time,patience, or the memory  to update on everything thats happened the past few weeks but I’ve come to the relazton no one can live my life and tell the tale. One thing I must talk about is Adonis….Today we hung out and I finally got to clear the air with him about all the things that happened when we were younger that prevented me from dateing him. I told him about being molested,being given up by my mom, and about the SI&Depression and me trying to slit my wrists when I was 13 and ending up in the psych ward at stony brook. He told me I was stupid for makeing up all those lies {I told him I was dateing a 20 year old………why I don’t know but it seemed like a good idea} I should have told him the truth because these past years all he thought was I was a whore {granted I am now.In my mind anyway….And according to outside input of third parties I am.although I now its not what it looks like …ok tangient..}he hugged me and kissed my cheek and tried to talk his way into my pants but i stopped him which Im so proud of, He has a wife, who m i to do ruin her happiness? {granted its not legal but when you lay under a man everynight thats for all purposes your husband}So after he left we hung out with David and his cousin and later on I made out with David, which I’m not proud of but am happy about….I don’t know what’s wrong with me. How can I love adonis, granted its in that ‘first-love-always-have-a-giant-piece-of-my-heart’way but still I would leave my husband if he asked me to{I’m not  married p.s}what sucks is me and carmello have really connected these past few weeks and now he won’t speak to me because of this whole Adonis thing. I don’t know how to act…Adonis is married I can’t,I won’t break them up and I mess with carmello and through the grapevine I heard he was going to ask me out but now that I’ve talked things with Adonis he hates me so I feel like I screwed myself in the men department. David oesnt count as hes a friend….I happen to make out with…8/ damn. What do I do now?

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25

Sep

strawberrycreamshit: eggrolls: underconstruction-xd: faindylicious: mikaloser: imsuperjoe: freakishlyawesomecreature: ayii-hearts: michaii: This is A TRUE STORY AND IF YOU DON’T PASS THIS ON YOU DON’T HAVE A SOUL!!! My name is Chris , I am three, My eyes are swollen.. I cannot see. I must be stupid, I must be bad, What else could have made, My daddy so mad? I wish I were better, I wish I weren’t ugly, Then maybe my mommy, Would still want to hug me. I can’t do a wrong, I can’t speak at all, Or else I’m locked up, All day long. When I’m awake, I’m all alone, The house is dark, My folks aren’t home. When my mommy does come home, I’ll try and be nice, So maybe I’ll just get, One whipping tonight. I just heard a car, My daddy is back, From Charlie’s bar I hear him curse, My name is called , I press myself, Against the wall. I try to hide, >From his evil eyes, I’m so afraid now, I’m starting to cry. He finds me weeping, Calls me ugly words, He says its my fault, He suffers at work. He slaps and hits me, And yells at me more, I finally get free, And run to the door. He’s already locked it, And I start to bawl, He takes me and throws me, Against the hard wall. I fall to the floor, With my bones nearly broken, And my daddy continues, With more bad words spoken. ‘I’m sorry!’, I scream, But it’s now much to late, His face has been twisted, Into a unimaginable sh ape. The hurt and the pain, Again and again, O please God, have mercy! O please let it end! And he finally stops, And heads for the door, While I lay there motionless, Sprawled on the floor. My name is Chris , I am three, Tonight my daddy, Murdered me. And you can help, Sickens me to the soul, If you read this, And don’t pass it on. I pray for your forgiveness, You would have to be, One heartless person, Not to be affected, By this Poem. And because you ARE affected, Do something about it! So all I ask you to do, Is pass this on! IF YOU ARE AGAINST CHILD ABUSE! Post this as ‘Daddy … It hurts’ If you do not send this to everyone you know Then you obviously don’t care about child abuse.   Seeing the baby’s face made my heart broken :(( I remembered my little sister and I was like “damn .. I don`t want that to happen to her :l ” Were like super lucky to have good parents, I thought this was like some of those crappy chain message but then I realized this was an important thing to reblog, to spread to everyone to stop CHILD ABUSE. (via cheskaholic I’m against child abuse. And please tumblr, I don’t want to see anything like this anymore. :<

strawberrycreamshit:

eggrolls:

underconstruction-xd:

faindylicious:

mikaloser:

imsuperjoe:

freakishlyawesomecreature:

ayii-hearts:

michaii:

This is A TRUE STORY AND IF YOU DON’T PASS THIS ON YOU DON’T 
HAVE A SOUL!!! 

My name is Chris , 
I am three, 
My eyes are swollen.. 
I cannot see. 

I must be stupid, 
I must be bad, 
What else could have made, 
My daddy so mad? 

I wish I were better, 
I wish I weren’t ugly, 
Then maybe my mommy, 
Would still want to hug me. 

I can’t do a wrong, 
I can’t speak at all, 
Or else I’m locked up, 
All day long. 

When I’m awake, 
I’m all alone, 
The house is dark, 
My folks aren’t home. 

When my mommy does come home, 
I’ll try and be nice, 
So maybe I’ll just get, 
One whipping tonight. 

I just heard a car, 
My daddy is back, 
From Charlie’s bar 

I hear him curse, 
My name is called , 
I press myself, 
Against the wall. 

I try to hide, 
>From his evil eyes, 
I’m so afraid now, 
I’m starting to cry. 

He finds me weeping, 
Calls me ugly words, 
He says its my fault, 
He suffers at work. 

He slaps and hits me, 
And yells at me more, 
I finally get free, 
And run to the door. 

He’s already locked it, 
And I start to bawl, 
He takes me and throws me, 
Against the hard wall. 

I fall to the floor, 
With my bones nearly broken, 
And my daddy continues, 
With more bad words spoken. 

‘I’m sorry!’, I scream, 
But it’s now much to late, 
His face has been twisted, 
Into a unimaginable sh ape. 

The hurt and the pain, 
Again and again, 
O please God, have mercy! 
O please let it end! 

And he finally stops, 
And heads for the door, 
While I lay there motionless, 
Sprawled on the floor. 

My name is Chris , 
I am three, 
Tonight my daddy, 
Murdered me. 

And you can help, 
Sickens me to the soul, 
If you read this, 
And don’t pass it on. 

I pray for your forgiveness, 
You would have to be, 
One heartless person, 
Not to be affected, 
By this Poem. 

And because you ARE affected, 
Do something about it! 
So all I ask you to do, 
Is pass this on! 


IF YOU ARE AGAINST CHILD ABUSE! 
Post this as ‘Daddy … It hurts’ 

If you do not send this to everyone you know 
Then you obviously don’t care about child abuse.  

Seeing the baby’s face made my heart broken :(( I remembered my little sister and I was like “damn .. I don`t want that to happen to her :l ” Were like super lucky to have good parents, I thought this was like some of those crappy chain message but then I realized this was an important thing to reblog, to spread to everyone to stop CHILD ABUSE.

(via cheskaholic

I’m against child abuse. And please tumblr, I don’t want to see anything like this anymore. :<

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23

Sep

fuckyeahtattoos: “I myself am made entirely of flaws stitched together with good intentions.” - Augusten Burroughs, Magical Thinking. 

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“I myself am made entirely of flaws stitched together with good intentions.” - Augusten Burroughs, Magical Thinking. 

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fuckyeahtattoos: The quote says “I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity” -Edgar Allan Poe. I have suffered from depression most of my life and have been poorly medicated. I’ve worked through it and I’m doing the great now but I’ve always felt this quote fit me well. I got it done at Dermographic Studios in Texarkana Texas by Mike C.

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The quote says “I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity” -Edgar Allan Poe. I have suffered from depression most of my life and have been poorly medicated. I’ve worked through it and I’m doing the great now but I’ve always felt this quote fit me well. I got it done at Dermographic Studios in Texarkana Texas by Mike C.

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I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions.
Augusten Burroughs (via silasdark)

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